Tuesday, November 17, 2009

When it rains....it thunders, lightens, comes tornados...etc.

Wow! What a couple of weeks this has been. Danny's grandfather, Pop, died, he had an interview in SC, took the job, we're moving soon and dad's health has declined to the point of kidney's not working well and needing an artificial heart, aka: L-Vad. It has been so stressful and I have broke down crying a few times. I really wanted to just crawl in a hole for a while alone, but, I can't do that. God doesn't want me to do that either. He wants me to rely on him, have faith and trust in him with all my heart...man, how I fall short in that area! The worst part is, I have trouble separating it out so that my babies can't tell that I'm stressed and upset. They know something is up. I haven't figured out how to do that yet, pretend like everything is fine, for them. So, I spent a good bit of time praying tonight, for all sorts of things. Peace, understanding, strength, my children, Danny, my mom and dad, and mainly claiming that He is my Peace, He is my strength, He is my deliverer, He is my calmness, He is my shield, He is my rock, He is my Help in time of need, He is my fortress, My tower! You know what? Just saying those things, claiming those things made me feel so much better, so much stronger. You know why? Because I was not allowing the enemy to cloud my mind full of fear, worry and doubt. He HAS to flee in the name of Jesus, so, he left me alone and could not hit me in my weakest spot. All we have to do is ask, and Jesus is there, waiting, like the gentleman that he is......amazing!

Thank you Jesus for your strength and power!


1 comment:

  1. Praying for you during this difficult time Melissa.